His Love

My life is taking a very new turn and I am excited- if you thought you knew me, get ready for a new revelation of who I really am...today I woke up into a different world where everything is working out for good for me-where everything I had been raised and had thought to be impossible seems nonexistent because even the impossible is possible to me; a world where I am nolonger defined by my weaknesses because in them I am now strong; a ...new WORLD where Life is beautiful inspite of the struggles of each day and the pains inflicted,I am unshaken because through them my endurance is stretched....This afternoon, I stand with a hymn "for it reaches to the highest mountain and it flows to the lowest valley- oh wonderful blood that gives me strength from day to day, it will never lose its power" for today even when nothing seems to be going right I can declare "ey bazalwane akukho uJesu angeke akulungise-yebo ngiyazi!" ( i know because He has done wonders in my life-and if He did it in mine, He can surely do it in yours if you give it to Him) and I quote " FOR THERE IS NOW NO CONDEMNATION FOR THOSE WHO ARE IN CHRIST!" Yaz I look at my past life and I look at my life now and I think ' My God! How was I able to make room for all these useless things in my life and still manage to live?' and my wonderful comforter,my gentle spirit says 'You thought you were managing,you thought you were happy,having the best time of your life and alive whilst it was only by His grace that you lived to see the next day-so worship and give Him praises for His ultimate sacrifise;those wounds and those stripes were for you to come to this realisation and knowledge of truth so you may live as a living testimony of His love-Now walk in the light and dont return to the mud as like pigs would...now you are about to have the best days of your life!' I did not understand what Paul mearnt when he said all that had been profit to me I now regard as rubbish so I may know Christ, but the meaning is slowly coming to life when I see my heart beginning to lose interest in the things I could have grabbed with both hands and held onto with my teeth if need be not so long ago-Slowly I decrease as my will is nolonger mine and as my soul slowly loses grip with my flesh as He continues to increase and as my spirit gains control of my flesh. My friends, I wish you could all partake with me in this feast of the living bread and drink from the well of the living waters...walk with me in this journey as we all find our knees before the throne of grace and run with me this race of victory in faith.

Stray not from the path of the promise

These days I am greatly intrigued by Joshua, who when the lord calls him to take after Moses is made a promise  that " I will give you every place where you set your foot, as I promised Moses.  Your territory will extend from the desert to Lebanon, and from the great river, the Euphrates—all the Hittite country—to the Mediterranean Sea in the west. No one will be able to stand against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their ancestors to give them." and through out the walk to the promise land, Joshua holds on to that promise. Whenever things do not look good and achievable, he strays not from the promise he was made and keeps his part of the deal “Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. ⁸ Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. ⁹ Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” This morning, it is in my heart that in whatever situation we may find ourselves in, we remember that which the Lord says we are and that which the Lord has promised unto us in this life time- I shall not leave nor forsake you; no weapon formed against you shall prosper and seek ye first the kingdom of God and all shall be added unto you. 
We should not have to leave our rightful positions in God just to attain temporal bliss and self validation, but at all times remain unto the already predestined path-one that was long planned and is sure not to fail or disappoint us for in that path even though we shall walk in the shadows of death, we shall not fear for the Lord will be with us.  I have strayed many times out of that path and it brought me nothing but shame and guilt and I must point out, regaining that confidence in approaching the throne of grace with the boldness Paul speaks of, was not an easy transition, but I thank God for His love and mercy for He has remained faithful and His love has never changed- He forgives like no other and forgets like no other. Today I have realized my mistakes and weaknesses and have come back home. Where are you? You do not have to expose your self to the same guilt and shame I felt.. stay in the right path and all shall be added unto you in good time and season.

Is the love you think you share pure?

I have lived and loved I believe and have at times compromised myself and the things I value the most thinking that's how love should be...but after a lot of reflection, I have come to realise that truelove would not require you to give up any part of you nor would require of you to change your values for the benefit of the other person-if that's what you have to do then you are in the wrong kind of love. Jesus did not compromise, he simply loved us enough to act out of love- we were not worth it, but because His kind of love is pure, sincere, faithful and unconditional, he found it fitting to descend from His throne so we could be redeemed and deemed worthy to be called God’s children. What am I saying? it is about time the youth changed its perception of love-move from the worldly definition towards the Godly kind- truelove is the kind that brings you closer to God; the kind that makes you a better person -not better for him/her, but better for God and if you are better for God first, people will soon grasp that your kind of love is the most fulfilling, complete and satisfying and will therefore love you without requiring you to compromise any of yourself or values.

‪# ‎now‬ let your minds be renewed unto the likeness of Christ

He knows you better

I grew up with a strict father and only saw my mother for a few weeks during holidays (they were not yet married) and as a result I am close to neither of them and do not have that mother-daughter or father-daughter bond that most children would tell you about. As I grew older I got introduced to other things that eventually moved me further away from who my parents were raising me to be. I still remember the day I did something so sinful that I realized just how far things had gone and at that time, all I could see whenever I looked into the mirror was disgrace, shame and failure; as the year progressed, I grew to resent my childhood and not being close to my mother because I was convinced that if only we had been close and I could confide in her then I wouldn’t be where I was or a sinner that I am and soon  that became the only thing that kept me going-I atleast had something to blame for my transgressions. But of course, this is just me laying a foundation so you may have an idea of where I come from…so I am in matric and have learnt to live with it and out of nowhere things change-I get saved! My salvation was none like others I believe, it was by force because I first had to choose life in a dream and woke up screaming the name of Jesus before I stood at church and confirmed it (some people make a joke of this when I share my story but I do not mind because that joke saved my life) but that is a story for another day…so my journey with God began and I could feel the burden having been lifted off-I could breathe! Moreover, as we walked together, more things were revealed and I realized that all along my parents, even though having not yet received  the grace of salvation, they had always warned and advised me against all the things I had ended up doing but I had been disobedient and was so wrapped around the ‘unfairness’ of my childhood that I failed to realize just how privileged I am to have them as my parents; He chastened me with the truth and showed me everything I had done wrong and where my weaknesses were- we were best friends- a well-oiled-machine kind of a team I would say. Unfortunately, I eventually back-slided and allowed my weaknesses to take over and moved from Him, but never once did He remove his eyes from me, instead He remained faithful, forgave me and brought me back up and never counted my failure or weakness against me. Times like these seemed to have become a habit and they made me feel like a failure because the harder I tried not to fall it seemed the easier my fall was and the harder I prayed the more I seemed to get tempted and fasting was even harder since avoiding food felt way more like torture than when I simply did not eat.

What is my point?  The family you were born into and the parents you have are not by mistake- they are not out to get you nor are they to make your life a misery- embrace them and allow them to love you with you loving them back. God trusted them to bring you up into that which He wants you to be for His own plan- let His plan play out by allowing Him to order your steps and Him to mold you every day.  From all this, I realized just what a Mighty God I serve- in the things that others regard as small, I have found my redeemer; I have found my strength and have learnt to surrender all to Him- my weaknesses, my strengths, battles, challenges and even temptation- He deals with all of them for me for He says in Matthew 11: 28-Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  That's all you have to do-come to Him!

There is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ

Many of us walk through out life with a burden of guilt and shame even after we have confessed our sins and have accepted Christ as our Lord and Savior which is something that was not in God's plan when he gave His only son in our place. When Jesus died, His purpose was to redeem us and reconcile us with the Father- He died in our place so we wouldn't have to carry the burden of sin and condemnation. That is why Paul writes in Romans 8:1- There is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. This is because when He was crucified, all that had been ours was His, The yoke that had been ours He took as His own and freed us- where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty. There is therefore no reason for you to walk around with the guilt and shame that you used to carry before you were in Christ for the old has passed, behold the new has come! God does not only forgive our trespasses, He forgets them and are never remembered- so stop condemning yourself and press on to what is before you!